4th March 2010 - My Mothers birthday 10 years on from travelling 2 hours on my own to Wythenshawe hospital, Manchester Outcome - Diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder It continues to be a massive battle. But one I'm aware of.
Returning from the Isle Of Arran, I've realised the 5 biggest game changers in my life to date (In no particular order) Alfie the dogMan United winning the treblePassing my driving test on the 5/6th attempt - loss count!Leaving educationMeeting Anna There's many more I can bore myself about that one would class as 'achievements' [...]
So I've finally nailed it! Without question the fuel to my fire, the medicine to my brain, the key to my future lies within my 11-7am schedule. Yesterday, I cleared every item in my bedroom apart from:- Bed2 fake plantsAlfie the dog I slept beautifully. Another new ritual i do is turn my phone off [...]
10 years ago I was astray. astray from civialisation. looking back, survival was a minor miracle. i insisted in going into a mental hospital following a lost weekend in jersey. 10 years on we move towards the end of a decade. my first in which I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. From 20k in debt [...]
Is it true what they say?Nothing in life is freeAre you looking this waySurely this can't be I know that youain't like the other onesMarch to a different beat, babeBanging a different drum I think I told you before thatThey don'tThey don't own meI think I told you before thatThey don'tThey don't own me I [...]
My Christening circa March '80 So apparently the planet is in serious danger of heating up to a point of causing mass damage by 2030. If i had a child today, I would feel guilty. Thank you lordPete Baldwin Merry Christmas to all those cunts that buy all that shit and tinsel for all their [...]
'77 star wars '77 brother born '79 me '84 parents split '90 wrong year at school '92 leeds league '90 - '96 bullied '97 diana died '99 man u treble '01 9/11 '05 granny died '08 ferguson, fretwell '09 uncle died '10 bipolar '13 bramwell '13 niece '19 the rise of skywalker '20 broken cups
so after two years i have a girlfriend she doesnt know i have bipolar disorder, just that i suffer depression and anxiety. i think it's pretty fucking obvious i have bipolar disorder where it all started.. anyway, she's lovely.
why me? what have i done? not cheated not inhaled not committed a crime, yet! but for the first time in my life. im truly in love
March 5th2016 Being able to finish my first shift at Manchester health academy gave me the chance to rush into Manchester city centre, dump my car and scramble for one of the remaining seats in the beautiful surroundings of the Bridgewater Hall. Seeing Ludovico Einaudi was a game changer for me personally. both to help [...]
Quarter of the year until I enter my 40thyear. How do I feel? Is the landmark worrying me? Is it fuck. On average a male lives in the UK until he’s 87 years old. This mean’s I still have more than half of my life left. i’m no doubt a depressed man behind the mask [...]
https://w.soundcloud.com/player/?visual=true&url=https%3A%2F%2Fapi.soundcloud.com%2Ftracks%2F700132711&show_artwork=true&maxwidth=500&maxheight=750&dnt=1 My heart shall feel thy love, and raise My cheerful voice to songs of praisePraying Psalm 13 — Upward Ever...
Different gravy today.. She confesses firstly. She’s on the same anti depressants. So I ‘top trump’ her.. Let’s see what happens.